aa, my twenty-first century child

i've got the aids anxiety and it doesn't suit me much
lung cancer concern or a liver disease distraction
would be much more appropriate, i think but i've got
the aids anxiety nonetheless have had it since i was six
dreaming of world churches and an aunt i hadn't seen
in years, damp bed beneath me, doctor peering down
with t-minus two minutes wet on his lips and what
a deep-seated dysfunction i must have to worry
this way about my partners and the embarassment
i've got the aids anxiety, child, and don't i feel ever so
twenty-first century? tired, scared, spending, waiting...